7:10 p.m. - 2006-05-26
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I'm thinking about leaving Allen.these thoughts have come so often latley it's hard to push them aside. I Love him so much, but I just feel so jaded, I feel like I can't trust him anymore. And he gets into these weird mood swings that drive me crazy. This whole past week he was cold to me. It's like he was here, but he wasn't. And then one day, i figured what the heck, I went out to the living room and told him goodnight, gave him a kiss, and he said he was sorry for being such an ass. Then after that he's been in a good mood. I have had arguments with him in the past about porn, He said he'd leave it alone, but I found out he's been looking at it again.I don't know what to think. I mean how stupid am I-really?I was thinking about waiting it out till I can save up some money but who know what I'll do at this point, I haven't even talked to him yet.
